As soon as you launch out into anything public, you might suddenly become very nervous.
When I speak, teach, blog, or lead, I’ve learned that my nervousness stems from a fear of shame–of rejection–that once removed, sets me free to be myself in front of a crowd.
When I wonder what others will think of me, I get nervous.
When I wonder whether or not I will do a good job, I get nervous.
When I wonder whether or not I should be doing this public thing, I get nervous.
So I try to stop wondering these things by (and I know this sounds crazy) learning to anticipate the worst that might happen. Rejection? Mockery? I’ve been there and survived (with flair). I remember that my public offerings represent gifts to the audience I serve. Others might reject the gift, but the point is I’m giving–not receiving–from the audience. I pray God enables it to not be about me. I also remember that public opportunities are acts of obedience to my calling. In this sense, I’m performing for a God who already approves, already accepts, and already delights in me. There’s no earning my own way; there’s nothing at stake.
Living with flair means going public.
Journal: Are you ready to be in public?