This morning as I read the book of John, I felt so refreshed in my faith in Jesus. In fact, the book of John is a great place to start if you are new to reading the Bible or just beginning your faith journey. I love the clarity and beauty in this book. I highlighted some faith-building statements we might ponder and memorize:
For the one whom God has sent speaks the words of God, for God gives the Spirit without limit. The Father loves the Son and has placed everything in his hands. Whoever believes in the Son has eternal life, but whoever rejects the Son will not see life, for God’s wrath remains on him (John 3:34-36).
I remember that God gives the Holy Spirit without limit. How amazing! I also love the gospel message summarized: We believe in Jesus for eternal life and to save us from wrath.
I also note Jesus’ words in John 5:24.
I tell you the truth, whoever hears my words and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from death to life.
I think of the transaction within the soul, this coming alive (Ephesians 2) out of spiritual death. I think of what it means to cross over from a kingdom of darkness (1 Peter 2) and escape the tentacles of death in all its forms as we now belong to a new kingdom of light, life, joy, peace, and righteousness. We have a new life in Christ, one we can hardly even fathom.
When you feel uncertain in your faith or unsure of what to believe, always return to Jesus. Return to the statements He makes about Himself in the book of John. Remember who He is and claimed to be. Remember the miracles. Remember the resurrection. Remember His offer of salvation for all who believe. And then worship Him. He will lead you and care for you as a Good Shepherd, no matter where you are or how desperate your life feels. The promise of the gospel message extends to you right now. As you embrace Jesus with your whole heart, He begins to work in marvelous ways.
This morning, I reflected on Psalm 143 and the cry of David when he feels hopeless and depressed. It’s written from a cave where David must hide from the murderous Saul.
Imagine David’s fear, discomfort, and sense of feeling trapped. Imagine all he’s lost from those days of shepherding sheep as a boy. Did he miss his family? Did he miss the life he had? How lonely was he? How sad? How desperate?
From this position, we find perhaps one of the most encouraging prayers to the Lord. A hopeless David writes this:
Answer me quickly, O Lord; my spirit fails. Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit. Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. Rescue me from my enemies, O Lord, for I hide myself in you. Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground.
– Psalm 143: 7-10
Notice what David does when he feels his spirit failing: He knows he needs God’s presence. He knows he needs God’s encouraging love. He knows he needs to put his soul in God’s hands. He knows he needs to hide himself in God.
The Psalm reminds us: The Presence. The Love. The One to Whom we Surrender. The Hiding Place.
What does David know about God that would cause him to take this position before God instead of anything else he might do? Why didn’t he just give up or run far away from his calling? I see how David knows God gives direction, provides rescue, and continues to lead His people.
I find my soul also praying that each new morning, we find a fresh word of God’s unfailing love. I also pray that God’s good Spirit leads us on level ground. God was faithful to David and will deliver us as well. He will teach us to do His will for our lives, too
I love the daily practice of writing–even if I don’t know what I’m writing all the time. It’s good just to sit down in front of the blank page. It’s good to contemplate. It’s good to sift through your own mind and see what’s there. It’s good to just begin.
If you do this every day, you’ll connect better to your written voice. The person you are inside will come out to play. You’ll find expression right here outside your inner world. It’s a great gift to articulate a thought into something you out there can read. Ander Monson writes when we read essays, for example, it is “as close as we can get to another person’s mind.” Writing is a way of getting close to your own mind, too–as Joan Didion famously said she writes “to know what [she] thinks.”
So keep coming to the blank page. See what you’re thinking.
I’m still in a season of listening, learning, and praying about everything affecting our lives during this time–whether in debates about COVID-19 or how to combat systemic racism in truly helpful ways. I ask God for wisdom every day. I ask God to position me as an agent of blessing, proclamation, and reconciliation as I attend faculty meetings, prepare for fall teaching, run my household, and live as a citizen in my county.
I don’t feel despair. I feel hope. I feel BIG HOPE. We’re in a liminal state in so many ways. I’m in a liminal state as a parent sending a child off into her adult life. I’m in a liminal state as I think about a new social order of anti-racism. And I’m in a liminal state as I grapple with a changing educational model of online learning.
Liminal states! They are purifying, reorienting, and root-growing times. I’m thankful.
It’s not a cherry. It’s not really a tomato. It’s a hybrid form of something salty and sweet, and it’s delightful. I am finally beginning to harvest the ground cherries. Inside the papery lantern, a tiny yellow blueberry-sized ground cherry awaits!
For the past 16 weeks, our ministry staff team working with graduate students met online Monday-Friday every morning from 9:30 AM-10:00 AM. At the most, 12 of us gathered, and we rotated leadership every morning. We took the first 10 minutes to visit and share about our lives. Then, someone led a 10 minute devotion through a passage of scripture of their choice. Finally, we prayed through the topic addressed in the devotion for the last 10 minutes.
Personal updates, promises from scripture, and prayer together: a simple formula that brought so much joy.
I especially loved learning from the older staff members. I learned from their wise insights in scripture. I listened to their mature prayer. I thought about walking with Jesus for the next thirty years as they have. Then, I went about my day.
This prayer group sustained me as I transitioned back in March to online teaching and felt depleted of every resource. The devotion on Jesus feeding the 5000 and multiplying whatever resources we offer Him changed my whole perspective that day. This prayer group helped us all grapple with systemic racism as we prayed through Isaiah’s call to work against oppression along with our staff living in the heart of the protests in Minneapolis. This prayer group prayed me through the end of the semester, through my daughter’s graduation, and through the building of a summer garden. Prayer became the rhythm of the morning and the wisdom for godly living.
I think the early gathering of believers in Acts must have felt this way as they shared their lives and daily prayer. I’m excited to find ways to continue gathering others in prayer like this online, especially if we return to a COVID-19 isolation situation.